Monday, August 15, 2011
Trying to adjust....
Well, I made it to my mom's. I was really hoping that she would allow me to be a blessing to her and give her the help that she needs...unfortunately, it's just not working out that way.
When I got here, she was in the hospital because she had let her blood sugar levels go over 700. (normal is between 80-120, from what I understand). She's diabetic. When she was in the hospital, she was combative and confused and to quote a nurse, one of her more "difficult" patients in recent memory. When mom came home, upon discharge, the Dr.'s noted that she had issues with confusion. What we thought was alzheimers is really dimentia. Unfortunately, caring for my mom is becoming more and more difficult by the day. Her Physical Therapist came by the house today and told her that he could only help her as much as she would let him. She was very stubborn with him and on the way out, he told me that I should put some sort of warning notice sign on our lawn. LOL. We've hit the point where, in my mom's eyes, I'm doing nothing right and I'm just making her life difficult. She's having trouble with remembering when (or if) she's taken her medicine and gets obstinate with me when I try to help her.
Being honest, the stress is really weighing on me...I'm just praying, praying, praying at this point. At her appointment this morning, she actually apologized to the Dr. because I'm so "ugly". Argh! Her Dr.'s are working on a plan for her care for both the short-term and the possible long-term and I'm just waiting for the cavalry to show up. (BTW, there is no cavalry...I just keep hoping!) LOL
I haven't had any time at all to stitch, but I'm REALLY hoping that soon (VERY SOON!!!!), I'll be able to relieve some stress and put thread to fabric.
In the meantime, I'm trying to hang in there and realize that this is just a horrible disease with horrible consequences.
I'd really appreciate any love, thoughts or prayers you could send our way!
I'm "cherishing" being here to help my mom, whether it seems like I'm really "helping" or not....